Numb to love

That is how I feel
Numb
Numb to love
Scared of love
Insecure in my want for love
Insecure in my want for wanting someone to love me
Insecure of my flaws
Insecure in my own insecurities
Is there truly someone out there who would have me for their own?
Someone to love me for my flaws and the person within
Not just tell me they think I am beautiful and think that is something every woman wants to hear the first time they meet a guy
Not just tell me they think they love me without having gone through the effort to really get to know me first
How do you know you love me?
How do you know I am beautiful?
Isn’t my worth, worth an effort from you?
Do you take pleasure in trying to stroke my ego?
For my ego takes no pleasure in such things?
The simplest form or act of love that a man could ever give me, is for his spirit to touch mine with such divine providence so as to act like a healing balm to my spirit
I yearn for love
I want to love
I know I can give love
For I have a lot of love to give
I want to be loved back with as much intensity as I do when I do
Yet I cannot help but feel numb to love
I cannot help but feel helpless for love
Isn’t my worth, worth an effort from you?