Neatly wash off last nights vision. Choose from closet. Pick some members of obedience. Apply a little sarcasm. Nourish the muted heart. Rub it in carefully. Use some honesty classified. You don’t want that mess. Go with the flow, smile. Be careful with happy. Content is key.
Day: December 9, 2020
Waste of time
I’m sorry. I’m sorry because out of fear and thoughts that you deserve better than me, I pushed you away and got you to hate me. I thought you were bluffing when you said there were many girls wishing for your attention, but now that you’ve got one, you’ve ignored me, dropped me aside and rightly so. I’m jealous. I don’t know what I want. I want you but i don’t deserve you. i’m not good for you. I’m not pretty, filled with flabs, flanks, and gas… I swear i’m not pretty. I’m not humble, i don’t cook, i’m insecure, i need constant reassurance, i’m boring, i’m rude… You were right, I should be alone. I should leave you alone… but i’m scared. I’m selfish and too lonely. so please ask me again…
Right
After everything has been said and done there is still thousand hours of aimless thoughts.