I am so angry and have been for quite some time. I honestly cannot figure out how far back, but I am angry, very, very, very, angry. I wish I didn’t feel this way, but I do. My life isn’t what I want it to be right now. I am grateful for what I do have, but I am not okay. I had to end my therapy sessions because I didn’t appreciate how my therapist spoke to me or felt the need to talk about her issues during my sessions after I was paying for my time. She felt that after three sessions of getting to know me that I wasn’t being honest. Everything I do is honest, and I am extremely, extremely transparent. Nevertheless, I had to end that relationship.
Speaking of relationships, I am in one that I am not happy about. I don’t want to be with him anymore but I also don’t want to be alone. I am fully aware of my selfish behavior, but I just don’t know what else to do. I am tired of not having friends, not being in a healthy and loving relationship. I am not happy that I didn’t end up with the person I wanted to end up with and I am tired
I also feel like I am doing everything alone. I am trying to figure out my next steps in terms of housing, debt payoff, and my future. I have been taking care of myself and other’s needs ahead of my own. Now that I have pretty much stopped, I am now considered selfish. Who takes care of me when I am in need? NO ONE, and I AM TIRED.