m e l t

sometimes, i feel
b r o
k e n
i n s
i d e

you leave shards of glass in places i hide.
i take them out carefully and wrap myself up.
but instead of walking the other way,
instead of moving on, facing another day…

i see your face, and i walk towards you.

i jog.

i fucking run.

i’m not d e s p e r a t e,
s t u p i d,
c o d e p e n d e n t,
s p i t e f u l.

you make me m


The saddest part is

I dont get to care. I am not allowed to rail at you and scream how embarrassing this is that you have so much more potential than you are showing. That i KNOW the kind of pain you are in. That i KNOW why you photoshop photos and lie and manipulate. That you segregate your friends so that lies are better hidden and smaller groups are easier to use.
You believe you will never be good enough. So this creation, which is bullshit, is your passport to world.
But i dont get to tell you that because your disease is so strong it only turns the truth into more cancer.
I dont get to tell you that you ARE enough. That the lies and games never ADD to your being, they subtract. You are selling yourself so short and giving power back to those that set you on this path.
I dont get to scream that you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen because you see only lies. I thought for a long time that i was the one of little faith but it is you.
No faith in love or goodness or yourself.
These are the reasons my heart breaks every single day. Living without you is easy. Living with the knowledge that your time is wasting away and you are in pain is infinitely harder.
But Im still praying and hoping.
“Let the angels go where you can not”


things can be easy.
we can live fast in the slow lane
things can be so, so easy
not complex, but happy and plain

you and i, me and you
against all obstacles, we’ll do what we gotta do

just listen and follow my voice
i’ll show you what you need,
you’ll always have a choice
but i’ll show you how to succeed
simple steps in the right direction
but i’m not always going to lead
you gotta show me some affection

i need to be loved in the right way,
not this “you vs me” type way
it’s us, together,
change your mentality
so no matter the situation,
we won’t weather
this isn’t just a fallacy
something that doesn’t exist
it’s real, true and deep,
something most people miss.

it comes down to the little things,
i keep saying that, I know
lil notes, random hugs,
at the end of every day,
love is what you need to show.

fuck the technicalities,
fuck the toxic behavior,
i want this shit for real,
growth is mandatory,
from both sides of the hanger

you hold me up,
and i’ll hold you down
when we come up,
we ‘ll see who is still around
cause if i got you,
and you got me,
it ain’t nothing else in this world i’m gon need.