Over the years I’ve said a lot of fucked up things to you. There’s honestly expressing your feelings, and then there’s just being cruel, and I know I’ve crossed that line many times. How many, I don’t know, but I offer a blanket apology for all of them. The truth is being mean to you has never made me feel good for more than like an hour maybe, probably a lot less. And it never changed anything, so it was pretty pointless, destructive behavior. I still have a huge list of grievances that will most likely never be addressed, but I will work on myself to find more constructive ways to express that, even if only for my own benefit.