Right where you left me

Lately I’ve been feeling bad, and when I say that I don’t mean just bad, I mean that there’s not even a single day where I don’t cry because of a hundred different things. I’ve always know that being a teen ain’t easy, but I never thought it would be this hard, I have my own problems to deal with and, at the same time, I always end up dealing with my friends problems.
And between all of this chaous my best friend, the one person that truly understands me has been ignoring me for the past 20 days. I just don’t get how can he just not look me in the eye while answering me when I say something, he just doesn’t seem to have any feelings for me anymore. I thought they were exageranting when they said that there is a very thin line between love and hate, and he has cross that line. He hates me, but I still love him, just not in the way he wanted me to love him, and I think that it’s unfair that this friendship is ruined because of this, but I also know that it would be unfair to him to keep talking to me and acting like nothing happend when it did. Honestly, I think it would be better if I didn’t still love him, I wouldn’t be this sad if I’d be mad; but that’s not how it is, I want him to come back to my life more that everything, it’s actually starting to be bad what I feel, but I don’t even care anymore, the only thing that I care about is him, and knowing that he is fine even though I’m not helps at the same time it hurts, ’cause he is moving on, he is leaving all of this behind, but he is leaving me with it. I want him to know that I have been frozen on time, everything has changed for everyone but me, I’m still right where he left me.

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