I’m so so sorry. I do forgive you and I have to let go of all this. You would not want me to keep feeling hurt or being miserable over something that probably wasn’t true in the end. It’s wasting my time.
This is the most important message. I hope it’s what I left you with and nothing I said, even a thought I had in trying to cope with my own inner state, undid it somehow.
You don’t deserve to live with regrets. You should have a chance to build a new life like everyone. You can close the door on your past fully. That is the only way forward.
I’m happy and blessed and I want the same for you. Remember that. Go easy on yourself okay? I wish I could have done a better job of it back then and I hope you can forgive me for that.