Anh,

Here are a few things that I want to say. However, I will never say them to your face because they are things so honest that you might not want to hear them.

1. I wish you would wake up every morning and immediately think of me.
2. In the middle of the day, I want my scent to find your nose and make your mind stop.
3. I want you to surprise me. With anything. For anything. I want you to be creative.
4. I wish that when you text me to tell me you love me, that you would say, “i love you” instead of “i <3 you."
5. When you're on the phone or talking to a friend, I wish you would stop referring to me as a friend. Because I'm not.
6. I wish you would want to be in a relationship on facebook. Not because 'everyone else is doing it' but just because you want other people to know that someone special has your heart.
7. I wish you weren't so afraid to hold my hand and kiss me in public.
8. I wish you wouldn't undermine me when it comes to knowledge and education. Just because I'm not a science major does not mean I'm useless.
9. When I'm at home waiting for you, in your bed, I wish you would come back earlier than 6 am.
10. Sometimes, I wish I was Vietnamese so your parents would like me more.
11. I wish you weren't so oblivious about the things you do. Yes-you are a flirt, no-it's not always as OK as you think it is.
12. Sometimes, I wish you would write me letters like these. I've written you a milion cards, drawn a million pictures, all for you. I always get a "aw baby, i'm gonna hang it up" but you don't.
13. I really wish I never would have gone looking for those letters in your drawer. Though it's technically none of my business, I knew Linda liked you.

14. Sometimes I'm scared that I'll never be in love with you. Yes, you're intelligent, polite, clean, funny, have a great taste in music, food, and clothing, but anh, we just don't connect on that level. That one level I've been searching for my whole life. And right now, I don't think it's me. I think it's you.

15. Sometimes I wish you tried just a little harder at this. And hopefully soon enough you will realize how amazing I truly am. But the clock is ticking and my patience is running thin.

Sincerely,
Em