Maybe it was just all a bad dream, bad thoughts I was having cause of the distance, kills me.
Obviously I miss you a lot and things do play in mind because of our situation and I start to think all sorts. I hate it ! Hate that feeling…
Be nice all time
Will make me feel good, it will be & do good for you
Whenever you’re nice i feel guilty for hurting you, I feel guilty for wrtting against you, I feel guilty that I argued with you, I feel guilty for swearing, I feel guilty for all the wrong, I feel guilty for not doing enough, I feel guilty for not listening sometimes, I feel guilty for everything…
But my love for you gets
stronger & stronger
Deeper & deeper and then I want you more
It wipes all the bad the thoughts I had & brings back all the good
I love you…
Regardless am to blame or not, but you have made it all nasty…
We don’t have a proper communication & more pain..
No sweetness left in the way you talk or to deal with the situation.
But it’s cool what goes around, comes around.
Weather you doing it deliberately or not, it’s not the way.
Trying to bring a change, Hmm well all the best but it will come back. You can try, you can hide but whatever is in your heart, will always be there.
If you go, I will wish you all the best, but if it don’t work out for you & you return,
IF am not there who is to blame ?
Selfish people will blame you for everything, but they do the same.
Won’t let you move, but they try to move on without saying.
When you try it comes back round & blames you.
They forget they hurting someone, but when you do what they are doing, they will put it on you and say how much they hurt .
Easy to pin point fingers but never ready to discuss when you are the one always ready to talk.
This is how it feels…
Maybe am wrong, but will know when they come back & talk..
Until then peace :p
V, You find fault in everything I do, call me names, took my house key and have locked me out of the house several times, you take everything out of context, you’re argumentative, you don’t acknowledge what I do for you, you make me feel I don’t deserve to be loved, you make me feel worthless, you have me walking on eggshells because anything I say is wrong to you. You stomp on my self esteem, you don’t care that I spend so many days/nights alone when you choose to stomp off instead of talking about our problems, you don’t comfort me, you think the absolute worst of me without reason, you promise things you never keep, you don’t call or text me, you hang up on me, you’re friends on Facebook with your ex fiance which you have/had a restraining order against (who also bashed her hand up, called the cops and got you accused of domestic violence), you tell me OFTEN to get the eff out, you’ve gotten physical with me…. You have no respect for any of my thoughts, interests, ideas, opinions, likes, dislikes, physical safety, self esteem. All you do anymore is SCREAM, POUT, HATE. Guess what? You don’t have to scream anymore. You admitted you have never had a good relationship. You’ve told me how your ex wife does porn, as well as all sorts of craziness you went through with her. I am definitely NOT like your ex fiance or ex wife AT ALL, and, apparently that is the type of woman you want. You have crushed my spirit, stolen my joy, and shattered my heart, and broken any trust and faith I had in you.You killed US. I am defeated. You win.