Day: February 7, 2022

I can’t deny my feelings
And so I went there hoping you were alright
Despite the betrayal I felt in my lungs
And the guilt throbbing in my head.
I came to our garden
And pointed out the flowers.
“Look how much they bloomed this year.”
And you laughed with some hesitancy
Because you knew
I wasn’t yours
And I laughed in the insanity of it all
Because I could help but come to our garden,
The only place I have spent years crying inside,
The only place that feels like home.

I miss you but sometimes I hope I never see you again

Because if you never loved me,

I don’t want to re-experience the heartbreak.

That is where I am at today.