A letter to John

John – I would like to thank you. Thank you for those couple months that we were together. Though it was a relatively short time you helped me learn so much. So much about myself, relationships, and just life in general. You showed me how I should be treated while in a relationship. That I should not be settling for what today’s culture believes a relationship is or should be. In today’s world gentlemen are hard to come by. So now, knowing that there are nice guys still in the world who want to treat a girl right is something so valuable for me to be mindful of. Though I was very upset at the breakup of us I can see and realize that God put you into my life to show me how my relationship with a guy should be in the future and that my ideas of an ideal relationship aren’t too out of this world. Also, thank you for making me realize I also needed to make a change in myself. I know you said you didn’t want to change people… but it’s in a good way I promise. I’ve now seen that I need to make a change in myself to better myself and become the person that I should be and think I deserve to be. By being more conscious about my decisions and beliefs and why I’m thinking the way that I do or why I’m doing something. Not just following with what everyone else thinks I should do or feel about a certain thing. But really focusing on the details and forming an opinion that is truly based on me. I’ve been going through important topics that are present today and becoming more informed on them. Seeing both sides to issues and deciding where I fall. I’ve also been able to look at my past decisions and figure out why I thought or did something at that specific time. And while I may not still follow though with that today it’s made me the person that I am today and has helped shape me. Thanks to you I have been able to become a better version of myself. I’ve also started reading the Bible again as a way of connecting to back to religion and having it take larger importance in my life. It’s often been pushed to the side or further back which I hate to admit but is true. And I’ve also learned so much from those few readings that I have done so far. I’m nowhere perfect or where my ideal version of myself is right now. There’s a lot of improvements and work that still needs to be done. But I’m working towards being the best for myself. And who knows what that will look like exactly in the future months or years from now. Though we didn’t work out and that’s hard to think about, I think we were really good together for that time. And we needed to be together to each teach some kind a lesson to the other. I hope you’re also able to take things about me and that I showed you during the relationship and take it with you or learn from it. Hopefully it was as beneficial to you as it was to me. And I really do wish you the best in life and everything. I know your wishes and dreams and hope that you’re able to achieve all of those and more. But I also hope that you don’t focus on the future too much. That you be here in the present and be grateful for the here and now. Thinking about the future too much can make you feel a little lost sometimes. So thank you again for our time together. Whether that be going on all the dates or just simply watching a movie at your house. I enjoyed being with you and truly wish you the best in life.

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