It hurts me that you are like this, it hurts me that you don’t care about damaging anything, that you damaged my birthday, that I think I won’t be able to love anyone, that I won’t be able to trust anyone, that I don’t know if I can celebrate another birthday, you damaged my ability to recover, and stop having a heart of ice, that I don’t want to have anymore.

Deep down. I want to love someone, I want to love you, I want you to be different and, all this will never happen. I can’t handle the fact that you are like this, that you don’t change, it’s horrible. You mean a lot to me, but we will never be.


You must think I am stupid. Any person with a half working brain would not have randomly tried to initiate conversation so fast after your realization set in. Does it scare you that you have no idea what I know or are you frightened with what I do with that knowledge?

You piss me off. I am not a mean person….but stop testing me. I graduated college a long damn time ago. Go sit down.

Sincerely Britney