Cannot say saduko

Just wish you would lay it all on the line.
You think that I am unaware of contact you have had with others , and the fact the others are foes or friends of mine is a real deal breaker in the whole trust spectrum.
I left that town and life behind, they are not interested in you for you. You made contact knowing it would be instant attention, and not a knock back.

So why am I here why do you play these stupid attention seeking games with ppl that don’t have your best interest at heart. If you need to have contact with the opposite gender, use yoyr own contacts, not ppl that you know would be a kick in my guts.

You knew the deal when you wanted me, respecting soneone is not that hard .
You know I know but yet call me paranoid.
I could easily catch you out..but why should I have to cause that conflict, cause you are not man enough to be honest.
I dont understand how a man who is really a kind person inside could really be so foolish, especially when you have someone standing by you, giving you the undivided attention.
And wants the best for you. Suppose when I am gone and you might see it for what it is, however will you really give a shit. ???. Hope the next victim is not as good at hidden word search puzzles as I am. ……

Blue eyes

Think about you way more than I should.
How could I not when I am hopelessly lost in those clear blue ocean eyes.
Probably you are completely oblivious of the fact that there is this soul longing to hold your hands and snowboard down those snow capped Alps. Or May be you are the sane one, careful not to start the game where outcome is already known.
Want to be just wee bit selfish having found you after all these years, probably shouldn’t but wanted to ask you if you would want to join me in adventures around the world ?

I’m a lot

I don’t know how else to say it. Maybe too much for most. But the way I see you trying makes me want to try harder too. I know it’s now or never.

But for one moment, let’s imagine we had everything we wanted. That would be so nice. If I could make it happen tomorrow, believe me baby I would. I may not always feel like I am worth fighting for, but you, and us, that absolutely is.

Should I ask him?

I need some advice. I told a few of my close friends that I was moving to Portland in a few months. One of them is my ex-boyfriend. Most of them were very happy for me. My ex-boyfriend didn’t have anything to say but he looked very upset about it. We have had a very complicated relationship since we broke up. He currently has a girlfriend. I still have feelings for him and feel like if I don’t ask him about his reaction I will regret it. Should I ask him about it?