Been thinking a lot about you lately.. I wonder what could have been if I hadn’t messed it all up… or if you had actually talked to me about what happened. What hurt the most was that you took someone else’s word without even talking to me. I thought we ran deeper than that. The truth was I didn’t know how to tell you. I was scared. What it created instead was a monster and a formidable silence that can’t be broken.
I’ve finally reached that point of forgiveness, where nothing from the past matters. It doesn’t bother me anymore and every mistake on both sides were because we are human.
I forgive you
But there’s still that stabbing pain that comes with it…the acceptance of everything including the fact that I’ve truly lost a friend due to the bitterness, pain and anger on both sides
That’s what hurts me now Beautiful
Thank you for being with me during my loneliest moments, and for listening to all my non-sense. You always make me smile.
I enjoy watching you talk about the things you love, and I’d like to hear more.
I don’t know what you’re trying to do.
It’s pointless trying to think of how I’d get back at you.
I hope my misery is making you happy.