It’s been a very long time, but I hope you are okay. I heard your Mum passed away recently and I thought of getting in touch, but it must have been at least 6 years since we last spoke and me getting in touch at such a sensitive time might not have been useful.
I do think of you often and, although you’ll never know it, I sometimes wish I could jump back in time to spend some time with you again. You’re probably the only person who ever truly liked me for me, and I treated you pretty badly. I’m sorry.
We were both really young at the time, and I didn’t know what I wanted to do in life. I was young, selfish and confused, and wanted to get away and stand on my own two feet and grow up. If I’d stayed around, I don’t know how I would’ve ended up. Not in a good place I imagine, although that would’ve been no fault of yours.
I have grown up now though, and so have you. We’ve both got our own families, and I hope yours is doing well.
I just want you to know that I think you are great. Really great. You have a beautiful heart, your funny, kind and understanding.
I would love to spend the day with you, catching up, going for a drink, and just learning how you are. I hope you would too, but there is no way we could arrange that without upsetting those closest to us, so it’s sadly never likely to happen.
If I do ever bump into you and we’re with partners it’s going to be awkward, let’s face it. But I hope one day well get the chance to catch up properly again.
I have only fond memories and respect for you, and I hope you know that. Sorry for all the times I hurt you want to you for granted. Hopefully I’ll get the chance to right those wrongs one day.