Sometimes your brief or your persistent and others it’s all day. There are times I smile, laugh, am sad, or cry and even mad. I fucking miss you but I know your doing better I’ve seen a few pictures and your smiling and with your kids, I’m happy for you. It makes me more determined to stay away from you because of my toxicity and because you told me you hated me and I was a regret. I always look myself in the mirror repeating the hurtful words you’ve said to me, reminding myself how you feel about me.