I hurt

I hurt
Hurt like a motherfucker
Emotions torn threatening to tear my chest apart
Hurt
Hurt to the ends of despair
To the ends of no repair
I forgive
Why can’t I be forgiven
I don’t judge
Why am I judged
I love
Why am I not loved
I accommodate
Why am I not accommodated
I accept
Why am I not accepted
I hurt
Hurt like a motherfucker
And I don’t know what to do about it
I want to scream and curse
I want to pull out the heaviness from my chest
And throw it out to the dogs to devour
I hurt
I fucking hurt