We were so close
on your choosing
.. while I tried so hard to hold back
Reality
you wanted to go there
pushed for it
dreamed of it
us – together
it was you who came back to me
yes,
yes, all along I’ve been missing you
no, no I wasn’t and will never run after you
Thing is
..if it means enough you’d pull through
and if you don’t
it would never last
Something I won’t do for you
simply because I wouldn’t
find myself ever again if I’d lose you
..then
Ahhh, you were so close
or just so full of shit?
I don’t know what to think anymore
.. so I just don’t try to find answers
that I can’t answer myself anywho
anymore
I am doing well
my life is really getting a push forward
it has been little by little
Steady pace and never fast enough for me
Now I am almost in my comfort zone
again
yet, not really
because I have never been
..so it’s a bit different
it’s Content
* I disliked Content because
it’s not enough, never enough but
after everything*
..I take it
ahhh and not
in Moments I profoundly enjoy my
utter freedom
I pretty much do what I want
.. don’t have to answer to nobody
*besides work and even that is
..mmm doable
What get’s me
what really does
..why did you disappear like you did?
No word
.. just gone
1 second your profession of love
plans
dreams
.. next day
poof
gone
I think I could get over a breakup
over a fight
over pretty much anything
but you just left me with
.. nothing but the question why
& the battle of inner feelings still alive
Did I mean so little
that I didn’t even deserve
a simple goodbye?