This entire letter may seem cliche. Hell, saying that is even cliche now.
But you broke my heart.
I knew I was taking a big chance by letting myself like you. Nothing was in our favor, but I thought we could get past that. I do believe that you did feel the same for me.
But one day everything changed.
I thought we still could have a chance. And I thought you felt that way too. Apparantly I had thought wrong the entire time.
You told me almost everything I wanted to hear, and I know that you meant it in a genuine way. But you can’t say the things you did and not follow through. I can’t say that you led me on, because you did feel the same, you just moved on sooner than I did.
I honestly at one point thought to myself “I love this kid”. I fell for you hard.
I tell myself everyday that I’m over you, I think I keep saying it in hope that I’ll believe it.
I am slowly healing, but it’s taking longer than I thought. You we’re my best friend, and I could tell you anything. I’m glad that we’re friends again now, and I hope we can be best friends again. I also hope that someday I can tell you how I truly felt. I don’t know if I ever will though.
I have good days, and I have bad days, some days I actually believe I’m over you, and other days I just sit and think about how lonely I am.
In the back of my mind I still know how perfect we would be, and believe that it could happen someday. But I’m not letting myself think about it. Right now, all we can be as friends. As much as I wish it could be more, I’d rather have you as a friend than not at all.
I don’t know what more I can say. There’s not much that I can. I know that whoever you end up with is going to be so incredibly happen. You did hurt me, but it wasn’t your fault. You’re truly a great guy and I hope that there will still be a chance for us someday…