• Hey Almost Mom-in-Law

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    So, I know you think the world revolves around you, but as shocking as this may be, you are by no means the most important person on earth.

    I’m sorry that you were unhappy with your marriage, but your husband is a great guy and he doesn’t deserve to be cheated on.

    I’m sorry that your children didn’t turn out the way you wanted to, but it’s your fault. Blaming them for your marriage problems just tears them up and proves to me that you really are a bitch.

    Finally, I’m sorry that you’ll probably never see your grandchildren. Thank you for making your wonderful son, but fuck you for not loving him. If you can’t love my soon-to-be-husband, you don’t deserve to love our kids.

    So, please, don’t let the door hit your ass on your way out.

    loathe

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    I’m ashamed to be born of you My skin retches and reeks of you, I hate it so..

    Your thoughts belong to the stone age Your mind filled-up and overflowing with filth So full, it cannot learn or accept anything new.

    I sometimes think, I cannot be born of you. How can a bird be born of a crocodile? I hate myself just because I’m associated with you. It confuses me.. troubles me…I find it hard to accept.

    Everything about you defiles my sanctity Your words have more rubbish than the filth of the world put together Your thoughts are not your own.

    I wonder, how it would have been if you actually used that brain of yours,
    To think, is what it’s meant to do. To ask questions, to explore, to be curious. It instead only holds prejudice and ill-fed notions.

    When you were 17, didn’t you question authority? Didn’t you wonder “Why not?” instead of accepting blindly what was fed into your head?
    When you were 18, didn’t you feel like you were going to live forever, and the world is your oyster? Didn’t you want to fall in love and get hurt, just to feel alive? When you were 20, didn’t you ask yourself “Why should I not?” Didn’t you feel, “Why should I do this?”, when you didn’t want to.

    Did you ever bother finding the meaning of the word “Culture”, you keep talking about?
    Culture is an experience gained from interaction with the world & its people. Its not hereditary…It’s learnt. I’m sure you did not know that, until now. For forty years, you kept thinking that this is what “culture” means.
    How does it feel, to know finally, that you are wrong?

    The point of education they say, is to open up the mind, free your spirit and liberate yourself. Do you consider yourself educated? Because, your mind is so full. It cannot contain anything new. Its spent all its energy on learning things without questioning. Accepting things, with a blindfold on..

    For 22 years, you have been around me. Unfortunately only physically. Trying to make me a person you imagined me to be. While I bled I cried inside just for some understanding. You provided for me just like every parent in the world, in every species provides for.
    A morsel in my mouth, a place to sleep, a protection from the elements.
    And you boast of this un-extraordinary feat!

    Just so you know, I’ve done the best I can. Your children are not clay models, which you can model upon. They are individuals.. As distinct as you

    Maybe we will bite the dust, not knowing each other. Our blood being the only factor that binds us… Not with love. Its just blood. For 22 years you ceased to make an effort to understand me… What I’m passionate about? What I dream every night?
    How I like my toast?
    And How I feel about Marxism and dictatorship

    I was just some rubber putty who came of your blood & bones. I, sprung out of two strangers, who never understood me. Nor did I,
    Never will.

    There Is

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    There’s poison in the fridge,
    There’s hopelessness in her heart,
    And a blade in the drawer.

    She works nights,
    At least she used to.
    Her daughter doesn’t care,
    At least she used to.

    There a hero down the road,
    A demanding damsel up the hill,
    And time worth while spent.

    He plays to much,
    Games she doesn’t know.
    His girlfriend plays to often,
    Games she doesn’t know.

    There’s a dragon upstairs,
    A castle around her emotion,
    And an army for her bedroom.

    She fires to often,
    So quick to assume.
    Her princess cries too much,
    So quick to assume.

    There’s poison in the Fridge,
    And her daughter doesn’t care.
    There’s a hero down the road,
    And his girl friend plays to often.
    There’s a dragon upstairs,
    And her princess cries too much.

    Selfishly

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    Here I lay on your bed, pretending to sleep. Because truly, I really want to talk to you, but I can’t because it’ll kill me more. Because it’d be so selfish of me for not giving you the space you need. But then I fear that the space will make both of us more distant from each other, that things will change between us two, that I’ll lose you. We would still love each other, but not the same way. It hurts me because I care too much and worry about wanting to talk to you or be with you all the time, and always wanting to be your only everything. It makes me cry because I get so sick and tired of wanting to feel that way, and I can’t handle it. And I feel more alone than ever because no one will ever understand the way I feel, not even you. I love you so much, so selfishly, it hurts.

    I’m Curious

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    I’m curious as to the legitimacy behind the words you spoke to me. How sincere to your heart were they, when they poured out of your mouth and filled my body with sadness. And I’m curious as to how your doing at this very moment, what your thinking and how your new life is. I’m curious as to how you speak when questioned about your life you left behind, and if you even mention the girl you left high and dry. And I’m curious about your conscience, and if it even exists. I’m curious about how the poison of your words tastes when they hit your lips. Of one thing I know I’ll never be curious about is this, that there was nothing behind our very last kiss.

    Your eyes are clouded now, and probally always will be.

    How I really feel about this…

    by  • September 6, 2010 • 0 Comments

    There are many things I want to say… so I will say it. I will say it all.

    Dear Lover,

    I love you.
    I have always loved you.

    And I made a mistake by one day, letting you go. And you were always consistently asking me to come back. But I said no…
    I said it wasn’t right,
    From what I knew, or what I thought I knew, and from what they said, it wasn’t right – So I left.

    But I still loved you, even when I resisted you… There was always a special spot for you in my heart, Lover. I just didn’t want to acknowledge it. And you knew that. Lol. You told me that you knew.. You even told me that you and I both knew that you were the right man for me, But
    I resisted you… because I thought it wasn’t right.

    I am sorry.
    I wish that I never left.

    Well, I guess you’ve forgiven me, because now we’re kinda back together. But I say kinda because, when I started talking to you again, you had another. And you still had her for awhile..

    And now, I have these feelings for you… strong feelings… sometimes they’re so strong, it’s scary, and I have to stop myself. I think about you all the time. About me and you. I think that I think about you more than I think about myself…

    Anyways, I have these strong feelings… I told you that I love you. I even PRAY for you now… every night…

    You said you love me too… but…

    Are you still with her?…

    I know that I shouldn’t, but I was looking through your fb… and your hi5… and I found her.
    And I saw some of her comments to you, and I have to admit, I got jealous… but then again, it’s my own fault… I shouldn’t have left..

    And then I saw how you wrote her that poem… and I know, that was awhile ago..

    But are you still with her?

    Looking through those things, I did feel kinda depressed… because… well, you might still love her…

    Are you still with her?

    If you are… Lover, I love you. I love you deeply, but, I’m… going to leave… because I can’t handle that…

    (more…)

    heartache

    by  • September 5, 2010 • 0 Comments

    C,

    I can never tell you how I feel about you… you wouldn’t understand, I don’t think. When we first started fooling around, it was supposed to be just for fun, but… you tripped me. You made me like you, with your blue, ice blue eyes, and the way you’d laugh, and your games of rock-paper-scissors (ro-sham-bo, as you called it). And I gave myself up to you. Does that mean anything?

    Remember how I’d call you nearly every night, and we’d talk for three hours sometimes, about the most random things? I miss that… I miss everything, even though I KNOW you’re no good for me. Look at what you did! You hurt me. Broke my trust (and my heart).

    C, I LOVE you. I never let myself think it, but it’s true, and I HAVE to admit it. I love you, for some stupid, unclear reason. Won’t you at least call me back? Please? I remember the last time I saw you – when you came to give my necklace back. It took everything I had to not cry… at least, not until I got inside. I still cry… Maybe some day, I will tell you… just maybe. Until then, the most I can hope for is for you to call, or for me to forget. I love you, I miss you, I still want you…

    I don’t know.

    by  • September 5, 2010 • 0 Comments

    We dated. We laughed, we listened, we talked, we cuddled, we danced, we got annoyed. we interfered with eachother’s friends, we interfered with eachother’s work and family, we argued, we got over it, we argued, we fought, we yelled, we screamed, you pushed. Hard. I left. You came back, you begged, you cried, i cried, we hugged. We’re friends, you still want me back, i have to wonder: is it worth it? i just don’t know.