• I want you

    by  • February 17, 2018 • 0 Comments

    Tony I want you, I want us, I want it all. I choose you. I love you my brown eyes dimpled cheeks prince

    Rantings of a woman in love

    this thing

    by  • February 17, 2018 • 5 Comments

    What is this thing between us?


    A lost friendship?

    A broken connection?

    Did we break up?

    Were we even together?

    Why do you keep me in your life?

    Why are you so kind?

    Do you even know how badly I am hurting?

    Are you hurting at all?

    Do you love me or hate me?


    by  • February 17, 2018 • 1 Comment

    Don’t do what you don’t want to do. If you don’t want to spoon, don’t. Please don’t try to hold me when I sleep. It shouldn’t be that hard.

    Go to Bed

    by  • February 17, 2018 • 1 Comment

    I basically told you that I don’t really care about dying. You’d be better off without me. And you told me to just go to bed.

    miss my friend

    by  • February 17, 2018 • 1 Comment

    If I could I would tell you how I miss our friendship. I know we are friends now, but I mean what we had. What we have now is almost fake feeling. It’s like we just show each other our surface selves. Ii want to break open my shell again for you and be able to really talk to you. I want you to do the same for me. I want this piece of glass between us to shatter and to be exposed to each other’s touch, each other’s illness, each other’s embrace, and each other’s voice.

    Does that make any sense at all?

    I miss you, my Dearest friend.

    But I wasn’t allowed to keep you, for whatever reason. Tell me, did I do something wrong? Did I mess up everything for good somehow? What mistake did I make? Is it what I think it was? Did I go too far? Or did I just get too close, and it scared you or made you uncomfortable?

    Can we try the friend thing again please? I will try to control myself better this time. I don’t want to hurt you, but I want you to know my truth.

    I understand that you fear attachment. I know. Do what you need to do to keep yourself safe, but know that I am already attached.

    We can take it as slow as you need. I promise I won’t rush you. I can reach out first or you can. All I need from you is some sort of sign to let me know what you want, what you need. Talk to me, please, about something deeper than work or the weather.

    I will always love you, sweet man.

    please, Holli

    by  • February 17, 2018 • 0 Comments

    I browse this site about once a month or so. Many of the letter feel like I wrote them, and many feel like you did. You know who this is. If there is a snowballs chance in hell, I would give anything and everything to grasp it. give me a sign.