I realized that we are better off as friends than anything else. Just touching upon sensitive subjects creates stress that is not good for us. As friends we support eachother and are positives. When we cross the line, there is a toxicity that reminds me why we broke up in the first place.

I must admit that we see things quite differently and I know that isn’t your fault. But in a romantic relationship I need more. I have always thrived on consistency. Which, we never had much of during our past relationship.

I also take issue with being taken for granted (my perspective). Also I feel my attempts at improving our communication I felt was fairly one-sided.

I know what it’s like to be in a relationship where there is little to no fighting. And even if that relationship wasn’t the ideal one for me, I know what it feels like to have peace while with someone. I’ve never felt that way with you except while we were just friends.

This past month has really opened my eyes to the reality of our interaction (or lack thereof). And I just can’t go back.

Work and sleep
Sleep and work
and work and sleep
and sleep and work

I hold you when you’re tired and I love doing so
I hold you when you’re sick again and I love doing so
I hold you when you’re in a bad mood and I love doing so
I hold you dear, I hold you and ease what ails, I love doing so

Somewhere in between
Someday maybe ..

I will find life again
a little bit for me
all between
Work and Sleep
Sleep and work

I can’t believe how completely caught up I am in you. You’re on my mind 24/7.

No matter what I’m doing – my thoughts somehow always return to you.

How can somebody who won’t even give me the time of day have such a hold on me.

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. All I want is to have you in my life.

You’re always in my heart regardless.