Sometimes you have to make things happen. Other times, you need to help make it happen. You know what I mean? Today, a bunch of kids were trying to hide a necklace from the boys, I let them borrow my safe, dressed as a dictionary. Now they all know my name. Mark and John were hogging Rachel again. Don’t they see I want to talk to her too? Speaking of hogging, when I approached Trinity and Sadhna, leaving Rachel and the boys since I’m not included in theie little talk, Trinity just became sad! She looked all happy before I came. Eventually Trinity walked away, Sadhna and I followed her, I asked what’s wrong and she said, “I told you not to ask my that question!” Jeesh louise! I was JUST trying to help! I asked Sadhna to go ask her, then I left to watch Juliana play with a yoyo, to respect their privacy and all. Then, when I glanced at Sadhna to see if she was talking with Trinity, she was poking Minerva’s cheek while Minerva was poking Sadhna’s cheek. How did THAT happen? Eventually it was over and the teacher told us we have to plan the Halloween activites for the kids. The choices were Haunted House, Arts and Crafts, Story Telling, Snack Bar, and a Photo Booth. I got caught in the Story Telling, while everyone else in the group was doing something else. I was alone. Again. In a group where no one else from my group is. Again. I almost cried, being excluded for like the millionth time, but then, luck hit me. “Hey, wanna switch groups?” Zac asked me. He was in Arts and Crafts with Rachel and Sadhna. “Yes!” I responded. Before this happened, we got 10 minutes to ask if we could switch with someone. In the end, no one wanted to switch with me. I didn’t bother asking to switch with anyone in the Haunted House group where Minerva was because EVERYONE wanted to be in their group! It was no use. It was time up, then I sadly returned to my desk. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t fit in. I began to wrote my feelings in capital letters on paper. I think the reason Zac reached out to me was because he saw what I wrote, and maybe felt bad. “Thank you so much, you have no idea how much this means to me!” I thanked him, about to give a hug, then paused. Everyone would see, we were standing in front of the classroom, I didn’t want to start any rumors! As Zac walked away, I thought I heard him mutter, “I think I do have an idea, on what this means to you.” In a way, I think he’s really sweet. Zac scored some brownie points and became my favourite guy in the grade! No, I don’t love him like romantic love. I don’t even know what that is. But I do love him, not romantic, just love. JUST love. But still, Zac, he reached out to me, I was so thankful… He reminded me of you SeaOtter. How you’d pull me out of the darkness. Thank you. Thank you for that.
From, forever yours, Mouse