That is all it is. It will pass. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go.
We say that alcohol does not solve our troubles. We picture doing things differently, but still get stuck in the loop sometimes. How to quit with the repetition? Do you have advice? I could certainly use it?
You were alittle drunk so maybe you don’t remember this, I was too but not drunk enough that I’d forget I could never forget, we were coming out of the toilets and I went to link arms with u, and you didn’t you grabbed my hand and walked out with me holding my hand that probably meant nothing to you but for me…for me the one who is so in love with you..well it meant so much, and so it began I watched u dance you kept looking over at me and kept coming over leaning down and kissing my face, no it wasn’t the lips you kissed. You kissed my cheeks and my forehead you grabbed my face and kissed me more than once more than twice even..you did it alot..and we’ll then we were both drunk and you got unchanged with the help of me and another person and I saw you half naked,you are amazing your my bestfriend and I find it really tough being your bestfriend and acting in a bestfriend way being the girl you come to for relationship troubles and when u need me I’m always there because I’m your bestfriend but also because I am completely head over heels in love with you I just find it tough sometimes because I love you so much i want you to be with me I want you to look at me the way I look at you and it will never happen I get over it and then sometimes I find it tough again… I just wanted to get that off my chest..I can’t get that night out of my head the way u held my hand the way you kissed me it meant more to me then you will ever even realize and it probably meant nothing to you but.. thankyou..I love you.
i want you so bad. time’s at a stand still i wish you could touch me.. which i feel awkward saying because that doubt of how you may feel lingers.. anyway, i thought if we ever got that opportunity…. that all that tension built up would look like, not even saying anything because finally being able to touch each other would be (best word) EPIC!! i don’t know where i am going with this.. i’m frustrated!! I WANT YOU
To me pain is not working on a broken foot everyday it’s not carrying on with a smashed thumb it’s not ignoring the throbbing of my partially severed fingers or the sharp shocks of my knackered shoulder. To me pain is never seeing your face again never hearing your voice again never feeling your love again. That’s what pain means to me
No one ever told you to come after me when I left the first time. You fucking selfish bastard.
When I wake up I miss you because that’s when you used to think of me and text. I still am looking for it at the exact same time each morning for a few moments waiting, in vain, for some small word from you. Knowing it won’t come, but doing my diligence to check just in case.
I’ve missed you at the sea, I’ve missed you from other states, I’ve missed you when I was drunk, when I was asleep, and when I was working. I’ve missed you when I have been happy. I’ve missed you when I am where I belong for the rest of my life, with my family.
You absolutely do not deserve this energy. I clearly see what a fool it makes me. Mercifully you do not know because I gained the resolve and dignity to never contact you. Oh god, how I hope you don’t “feel” it.
It has been two months since the last time you reappeared after constantly leaving me behind. I knew it was no good for me, but I went to you, to be used up heart and mind. Knowing you’d break every empty promise. Knowing as you held my hand begging to be a part of my heart and my life again you really only wanted to get inside of my pants instead.
And still, I miss you. I miss you as I type these words. I know that if the patterns prove themselves again you should be coming back soon. Do you need to confirm that I am dead? Are you coming back to run me over again? I will stay down for heaven’s sake. Well, until you pop by. Then I will open up one eye from this cold hard ground just to catch a glimpse of your green eyes. Just for one last time. But I’m not getting up. I promised myself I will stay dead this time. I have to stay dead this time. Please help me stay dead this time.