• You Are So Pretty

    by  • February 24, 2010 • 0 Comments

    Everyone wants to have your gorgeous body, silky hair, youthful face, and flawless smile. You even wear nice clothes. Why do you think so little of yourself? I don’t know what you must have been through, but I can imagine it was traumatic. I really do feel bad for you, because I am no stranger to self-esteem issues. But in thinking so little of yourself, how do you manage to use others in such a way that only your selfishness is served? If only you had a personality to match your exterior that means so little. I really do want to like you. It is petty of me to be so jealous, but you get treated so well for being such a cunt.

    Shoelaces

    by  • February 24, 2010 • 1 Comment

    15 years old is too young to die. You were so full of life; such a cheery, caring, compassionate girl. Life hadn’t dealt you the best cards, but you loved every moment of every ‘card.’ On my 13th birthday, as a surprise, you took me to get my ears pierced at Claries, and then we had a sleepover at my house. But because you lived so far away, we rarely got to hang out. Before your passing, we had mentioned hanging out again sometime, but had I know your time was so limited here, I would have made the plans in a heartbeat. I’m crying as I write this because I am alive, and you are not. I don’t know what it’s like where you are right now, but I do know that you are missing out on a lot of really great thing. First loves, kisses, first cars, getting married, having your first kid, and many other things that you never got a chance to experience. The saying’s true, and now I know it more than ever, ‘you don’t miss it until it’s gone.’ Even though we weren’t very close, I think about you every day. This is because you taught me a special way to tie my shoelaces, so that they aren’t knotted, but will never come undone. Ever since you taught me, I have tied them this way, and I always will. Every time I tie my shoes, I am reminded of how, even in the slightest ways you aren’t even aware of, you impacted people lives. Like they said in your obituary, you were well beyond your years, and had you lived a full life, you probably would have changed the world. I miss you Erin, and I wish I could have said goodbye.

    Closer

    by  • February 23, 2010 • 0 Comments

    We used to play almost every day in the summer. As we grew up, and learned to hide more and more of our emotions, we grew apart. This didn’t have to happen. While we only got one summer together every year, that seemed to be enough. I wish you hadn’t grown too old to still have these summers with me. We have grown so far apart since you moved. No matter how far away you are, I will remember those summers forever.

    I love you – each and every one of you

    by  • February 23, 2010 • 2 Comments

    I think being in love with multiple people at the same time is not only okay, it’s healthy. Why are we destined to be in love with only one person at a time? My heart and soul are too complex for that.

    STOP… please

    by  • February 23, 2010 • 0 Comments

    Your constant pacing drives me insane. ANNOYS ME. That, and the many ways you ask me to help with the same thing. You know, like you think I won’t figure it out without your constant badgering. It’s ALMOST as annoying as how often my office mate EATS. But, that’s another letter…

    Enough is enough!

    by  • February 23, 2010 • 0 Comments

    You need to leave me alone and stop being an ass! I have had enough of you snapping and swearing at me EVERY day. You need to knock it OFF and go bug someone else! I have never done anything to you to earn the constant mental abuse. Do you enjoy making me feel like shit? Do you feel as though you can never be happy unless I am
    NOT?

    WHY are you such a jerk to me and my family? Can you explain it to me, because I REALLY don’t understand!