In the short time I knew you we grew close, or so I thought. We chatted about anything and everything, when we were together we couldn’t keep our hands off each other, you made me smile and gave me butterflies. When we were apart we longed to be together. We got on so well. What happened? You just cut me off without a word. Not even a goodbye or a reason. I feel lost without you. I just wish you’d talk to me and we could laugh at silly stuff and get drunk and listen to music again. I miss you 🙁
I know it’s inappropriate for me to think so much about you, but I can’t stop. Somehow you’ve touched my heart. I think it’s because I get the feeling you truly understand me, see to the bottom of me, and all this without talking. All I have to do is to look you in the eye and my heart springs to life; I feel my heart pounding, my eyes linked to your eyes and if you wouldn’t have broken the contact every time, I think I never could have.
But you know what the odd thing is, besides the fact, that you understand me and can look into my soul like noone else, I also know that you want completely different things from life than I do, have completely different views on many subjects than I do. It’s like our hearts are linked and understand each other, but our minds cannot. And therefore we can never be together, because every deeper connection made between us, would only separate us, and leave grief, or maybe even hate. I don’t want that, I rather go on dreaming of a different reality, where we can be together.
So maybe in another life I will hold you, kiss you, call you my husband….
until then goodbye my love, goodbye.
I lost you just a few weeks ago, I know you want to be with me but this is not the right time, I want to hold you, kiss you, share my time with you, but you don’t love me anymore, I miss you so much and it hurts.
I hope we meet again someday, when the time is right to be together once more, for good.
good luck soulmate
i only wanted to love you and you pushed me away…
When I look at you my heart still skips a beat, and sometimes you still take my breath away. Just things are changing lately, and it’s happening really fast. We hardly talk anymore and when we do talk it ends up in a fight. I try to bring myself to say the words we need to end, and I always get so close to forming the words, but then the thought of you being with another girl enters my head, and it kills me. I can’t imagine you sharing inside jokes, or on the spot trips/adventures with someone else, but mostly it kills me to think that you will kiss another girl. I know that I am selfish for thinking this, because you would want me to be happy with someone else, but it would kill me if you were with someone else. But, I can’t handle what’s been happening in this past few weeks. Your temper has been scaring the crap out of me. The expression on your face is like you could kill someone, and I am afraid that one day, you will release your temper on me. I want you to be one the one that ends it, because I want you to make the choice, because I can’t.
I know you love me, and I know you want to be with me forever. You’re in love with me, and that makes me the happiest and luckiest girl on the planet. I am in love with you, and would love to spend the rest of my life with you. But I don’t know how long you’re going to hold on before I can get a hold of what I need to change. You can’t deal with my emotional baggage, and that’s understandable. No one else before could, so I don’t see why it would be different with you.
When I ask you why you’re with me and deal with me, you say “because I love you, and that’s my job.”
In a year, we will be moving north together. You will be starting college, while I will be freshly graduated from college. I am so scared to start my life as an adult, but with you by my side, I’m ready. We can take on anything together, and I can’t wait until the day we can live under the same roof.
You promised to give me everything I never had.
I don’t have much to offer, but I will love you for the rest of my life, and that is my promise to you.