• Good Bye.

    by  • September 8, 2010 • 0 Comments

    D,

    So many troubles are creeping all over my mind I don’t know what to do anymore. We gave each other our hearts so naturally to share and cherish. Everything felt so comfortable that way. You nurtured my heart with so much care and painted it with so many colors, and I tried so hard give my all to yours. But after some point you weren’t sharing anymore. You became careless. You took my heart and ran and then fell out of your hands, out of your control. If you don’t know what to do with it, if you don’t want my heart but someone else’s, why can’t you just hand it back to me so gently? Why do you have to torture it so cruelly?

    I always found a way to fall in love with you again and again. That spark in you never failed to pull me back into your charm. Or should I say spell. A spell that made me blind to the fact we were never meant for each other.

    To me, our love was real. Damn right it was. People will say we went too far, too deep, and that may be true. But I’m not scared to tell anyone that I was utterly and purely in love with you, and that I would never take anything that I did or said back for anything.

    You say you love me, but funny as it sounds, I don’t know why you love me. And as impossible as it seems, I don’t love you anymore. It’s time for the both of us to move on.

    Thank you D, for everything that we did.

    Good bye.

    Thoughts

    by  • September 7, 2010 • 0 Comments

    I’m sorry I hurt you so much. Mom, I know you are having such a hard time.

    Dad, we don’t ever talk anymore so I just want you to know that I hope you will be proud of me someday.

    Sis, I’m sorry I won’t be there all the time, to see your games and help you in school.

    I love you all.

    Maybe the Army will make a man out of me.

    To my amazing gf, I love you more than anything and I want to marry you. I just hope I live that long and that you don’t meet someone new in college.

    what are we doing?

    by  • September 7, 2010 • 0 Comments

    When we met you told me you were gonna leave in a couple months for college. And I’ll be honest, at that moment I told myself I’m only gonna have fun with you. But now I realize I love you and you leave in a couple days and I’ll never see you again.

    I wanna just stop and get over it so it wont hurt when u leave but I want more to spend as much time with you while I have the chance.

    I didn’t mean to fall in love with you, it just happened. You’re the girl I’ve spent the last year looking for in this new place but as soon as I found you, you have to leave. I love you, I really do and you’re leaving my life in a couple days the thought kills me. And I know i told you it wouldn’t get complicated and that’s why i cant tell you but i love you and i just wish i could have met you sooner.

    I would have treated you different if i would have known

    by  • September 7, 2010 • 0 Comments

    I know you’re dead know but I wish you weren’t. I never did one mean thing to you, only told you were pretty and always tried to go out with you. But you never cared. You had your boyfriend that you loved so much so I took a backseat but still trying in seldem ways. Then I hear you killed yourself cuz your boyfriend told you to. I wanted to kill him because if you would have given me the slightest chance I would have loved you the right way. The way anyone should be loved. I’m sorry I didn’t go to your funeral. I was planning on bringing a gun and shooting your boyfriend then my parents found me while I was sneaking in the car. I wish you were here or just so i could see you again.

    If you knew

    by  • September 7, 2010 • 0 Comments

    Dear B, it’s me again.

    I made the wrong choice. We were made for each other, and I blew it. Why is it so hard to convince myself to make the right decision now?

    Love,
    W

    why did u have to love me so much

    by  • September 7, 2010 • 1 Comment

    When I first saw you I told myself u were gonna be the girl I loved, the girl I would always treat right and try my best not to hurt. I’ve come from a lot of relationships which I’ve always been the one in the end hurt and upset so I thought it was gonna be impossible to make you feel the way I know u do now. When we were together u made me so happy you made me me. In so many ways you made me stronger and in so many ways you made me happy with myself again.

    But I had to test our love to see if it was true. I kept pushin and pushin but u always seemed not to care. Then I cheated on you and told you and I’ve never felt worse than that moment in my whole life. But u still wanted to be with me. If u gave me boundaries I would have obeyed them. The only thing was you never gave me any so I ran with that.

    Now that things are over u say I’m a terrible person and u love me so much. We’re over but I still love you and you still love me and we don’t talk anymore but we still love each other. I wish it would go away. I never had a girl truly love me unconditionally. Tricky thing is, I needed conditions….

    I love you Aly and I’m sorry it took me so long to realize u loved me so much. Nothing I could do would change it. I wish I could find you again and start over but truth is I can’t.. and it sucks