• BITCH Bootcamp: Week One

    by  • April 19, 2010 • 2 Comments

    Day One: Scream FUCK OFF! at the top of your lungs. This is best done in a public place, as it shows you mean it. The BITCH will allow you to start in the privacy of your own home and work up to public appearances.

    Day Two – Seven: Repeat Day One.

    Check in next week for Session Two: The Art of Flying the Bird.

    MY LOVE

    by  • April 19, 2010 • 0 Comments

    MY LOVE, FOR YOU IS BIG. ITS GREAT. AND ITS PERFECT. IF ONLY YOU KNEW THAT OUR LIVES WOULD BE THE BEST. BUT UNFORTUNATELY YOU ARE NO LONGER WITH ME. INSTEAD YOU’RE OUT AND ABOUT EXPLORING OTHER FEMALES THAT WILL FOR A COUPLE OF MINUTES MAKE YOU HAPPY. I’m REALLY HERE FOR YOU. I REALLY DO KARE ABOUT YOU. YOU’RE EVERYTHING I’ve EVER WANTED YOU’RE EVERYTHING I DON’T HAVE. YOU’RE WHAT MEANS THE MOST TO ME… IF ONLY YOU WOULDN’T HAVE CHEATED, IF ONLY YOU WOULDVE WAITED FOR ME TO GET OVER IT, IF ONLY IT MEANT ANYTHING TO YOU. I OPENED UP TO YOU. I TRIED MY BEST TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE. I THOUGHT YOU AND ME WERE FOREVER. I STILL THINK YOU AND ME COULD HAVE A CHANCE. I THINK WE KAN SOMEHOW WORK THIS OUT. I THINK YOU AND ME WILL BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT THINGS AND HOW WE MISS EACH OTHER.. BUT.. DO YOU MISS ME? DO YOU MISS US? I HOPE ONE DAY, WHEN YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. HOW MUCH I CARE, YOU KOME BACK. AND TALK TO ME. BECAUSE TO ME YOU’LL ALWAYS BE IMPORTANT. EVEN IF 30 YEARS PASS, YOU WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER HAVE MY HEART. STEVE. I LOVE YOU.

    My Stray

    by  • April 18, 2010 • 1 Comment

    They hang around my house and watch me as I come and go.

    It is as if they pay the mortgage and their property has been violated by my presence.

    Two stray cats stab me with stares of loathing as I go about the business of living. They eat from my trash, take shelter under my house, and cry into the bedroom floorboards on nights too cold. I never invited them in, and yet they seem to know I will not refuse them. They have a wildness about them, a sleek, dark beauty. They know I love cats, but they also know that I love dogs. And they despise such weakness, such mixed loyalties.

    Why is it they remind me so much of you?

    Were you ever happy when you had me? At times, you absolutely did not want me. Others, you had to have me. Most of the time, what you wanted was for me to reverse myself just for you. You acted like some spoiled, insecure child who just had to make sure that indeed, in this one way, the world did revolve around you.

    You know you cared, but you could not properly show it. That just would have been bad form, wouldn’t it?

    You could never be both mature and direct. You still can’t.

    Now you are sending me little notes, though you know it is inappropriate.

    You are like a stray cat mewling under my house.

    Giving up

    by  • April 18, 2010 • 1 Comment

    Im done. I dont want to do this anymore. I can honestly say i wake up in the mornings and wish i could just sleep forever. Life isnt worth it. Im a burden. I hate my past. I hate myself. But I have her, and for her i will stay.

    Secret Dreams

    by  • April 18, 2010 • 0 Comments

    I wake each morning smiling inside
    I go about my daily routine as usual
    No one can ever know the thoughts I’m thinking
    Wishing the dreams that make me smile were not just dreams
    I have a good life, a happy life, everything a woman could ask for
    Why do I desire what I don’t have, can’t have
    Knowing how much hurt my wishes and desires could cause
    Why do I think of you so often and wish I could come to you
    A man that probably doesn’t think of me, doesn’t long to be with
    me, doesn’t dream of a way for us to be together
    I want to explore things with you I don’t usually do, want you to
    teach me things that otherwise I may never learn, it’s not all
    physical needs, I want to know your mind, I want to have fun and laugh
    with you, I want to make you smile
    If only for a day we could be together again
    I have envisioned what a reunion would be like with you
    It has been nearly twenty years since I’ve last laid my eyes upon
    you
    And yet I can’t make my mind let these visions go
    My heart won’t let me
    This is the most illogical thing that has ever crossed my mind
    Still I go on
    Day by day
    Living my happy life as usual
    While deep inside the secret grows and I must keep this forever it
    seems
    These dreams and visions won’t come true
    No matter how much I desire them to be part of my reality
    I know that they can’t come to be
    I will continue to hold onto hope that someday I will reunite with you
    and my dreams will finally come true
    All I ask is for one day, one night to show you the emotions you bring
    out in me:
    Hope, adventure, laughter, happiness, intrigue, passion, honesty,
    friendship
    How can I justify these emotions I feel for you
    I don’t really know you anymore, haven’t heard your voice,
    haven’t seen your face, haven’t looked into your eyes, haven’t felt
    your embrace, haven’t heard you laugh or seen you smile except in my
    memories
    All I can go on are the feelings that my heart has developed from the
    written conversations that have transpired over the past few months
    and my memories of us from so long ago
    These facts I know are illogical and probably irrevocably insane on my
    part but this is my secret
    This is my secret, you are my secret friend, these are my secret
    dreams to keep as long as I desire safe inside me
    I go to sleep smiling inside, knowing the dreams will come to me as I
    sleep and I will wake up smiling to live my happy, normal life
    tomorrow

    man please

    by  • April 17, 2010 • 0 Comments

    what makes you think, that i have time an energy to waste hating on you, come on please live in truth, if when we had moderate clean dealings, why all of a sudden it’s just war with words come on you know me better, when people get angry with you are the two stop communicating it’s like you’ve totally forgot what attracted you to that person,let go of your status post anger my life wasn’t given by you and my life can’t be taken away by you, if you live for Jesus stop being a part time Christian saying one thing then doing something else in your valued time, stop half stepping and just be true to who you are you waste your post about who hate my enemies man they must be on your mind, put more of your time into the Lord, because i have totally moved on from you , and in closing if you can’t handle being rejected stop rejecting true people who you are blessed to have around, me a hater your enemy man please! there was life before me and there is life after me so focus on the positive i am no longer in your circle and you should happy be now act like it and man up. hater thank you and man please.