• Fear

    I can’t stop.

    by  • June 5, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 2 Comments

    I may never hear from you again, and I think I am at peace with that. At least, somewhat better than I was before. I still think of you, but since the internet has helped me learn that you are alive I can breathe again. I may be a toxic person in your life, and

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    I can’t stop.

    by  • June 5, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 2 Comments

    I may never hear from you again, and I think I am at peace with that. At least, somewhat better than I was before. I still think of you, but since the internet has helped me learn that you are alive I can breathe again. I may be a toxic person in your life, and

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    Inevitable

    by  • May 23, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Sometimes I worry that maybe I’m going to fall out of love with you, or we won’t make it like all of my past relationships. I think it’s inevitable. Then I lay in your arms on your couch as we watch a movie after we eat the dinner we cooked together and I think…I think

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    Inevitable

    by  • May 23, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Sometimes I worry that maybe I’m going to fall out of love with you, or we won’t make it like all of my past relationships. I think it’s inevitable. Then I lay in your arms on your couch as we watch a movie after we eat the dinner we cooked together and I think…I think

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    you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay

    by  • May 15, 2013 • Fear • 0 Comments

    I need to stop being so fucking paranoid. My anxiety is getting the better of me and it will ruin what we have. Maybe it was better when i was alone. I’m tormenting myself you know? I’m getting stressed out and it’s killing me. I’m starting to think I might love you. Anxiety, please don’t

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    you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay

    by  • May 15, 2013 • Fear • 0 Comments

    I need to stop being so fucking paranoid. My anxiety is getting the better of me and it will ruin what we have. Maybe it was better when i was alone. I’m tormenting myself you know? I’m getting stressed out and it’s killing me. I’m starting to think I might love you. Anxiety, please don’t

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    comfort

    by  • May 13, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    It is human nature to want comfort. Our ideas of love stem from fears of being alone. We settle for what we presume is love because we are comfortable. It is that comfort that distracts us from our fear. Despite my knowing that I am not in love with you nor that love you, I

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    comfort

    by  • May 13, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    It is human nature to want comfort. Our ideas of love stem from fears of being alone. We settle for what we presume is love because we are comfortable. It is that comfort that distracts us from our fear. Despite my knowing that I am not in love with you nor that love you, I

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    How do I proceed with you?

    by  • May 11, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 3 Comments

    Do I talk to you? I said I needed a break even though I didn’t want to take a break. It was just to help my wounds a bit. But…what if you don’t want me anymore at all? You just wouldn’t tell me so you didn’t have to hurt me even worse. What do I

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    How do I proceed with you?

    by  • May 11, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 3 Comments

    Do I talk to you? I said I needed a break even though I didn’t want to take a break. It was just to help my wounds a bit. But…what if you don’t want me anymore at all? You just wouldn’t tell me so you didn’t have to hurt me even worse. What do I

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    Afraid of Love

    by  • May 10, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Ever since my last boyfriend, I’ve been afraid to love again. He hurt me. He destroyed the very essence of who I was. But now you’ve come along and you’re fixing me day by day. I feel my heart warming and opening up again. But when you tell me you love me, I freeze up.

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    Afraid of Love

    by  • May 10, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Ever since my last boyfriend, I’ve been afraid to love again. He hurt me. He destroyed the very essence of who I was. But now you’ve come along and you’re fixing me day by day. I feel my heart warming and opening up again. But when you tell me you love me, I freeze up.

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    Just so I don’t feel so alone.

    by  • May 8, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    I am strong; I have been through a lot that many people would have buckled under. But my family needed me. My brother needed to know he was still loved and that his world hadn’t collapsed. My mother needed to be put back together after my father broke her heart. But now, faced with my

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    Just so I don’t feel so alone.

    by  • May 8, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    I am strong; I have been through a lot that many people would have buckled under. But my family needed me. My brother needed to know he was still loved and that his world hadn’t collapsed. My mother needed to be put back together after my father broke her heart. But now, faced with my

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    Sickness

    by  • May 6, 2013 • Fear • 0 Comments

    I know I won’t be around forever. I know I most likely won’t be here 10 years from now, probably a lot less. I can’t and won’t tell anyone. Maybe they can see it? I know roughly what’s wrong. I’m not going to fight it. It’s already painful, and I’m not going to prolong that,

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    Sickness

    by  • May 6, 2013 • Fear • 0 Comments

    I know I won’t be around forever. I know I most likely won’t be here 10 years from now, probably a lot less. I can’t and won’t tell anyone. Maybe they can see it? I know roughly what’s wrong. I’m not going to fight it. It’s already painful, and I’m not going to prolong that,

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