• What is this?

    by  • June 12, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Smitten • 1 Comment

    What is this? I loved you the second I saw you. Your eyes looked straight into mine and I felt a flash of electric fire. You woke me up. Now I can never sleep again. Twisting and turning, the projections of who I desired you to be mingled with who you really were. Two lives danced within my frame. Who do I want to be. Do I want to be the me I am with you? Do I want to be the me I am with him? Who lives here when I am alone? Who are you when you’re alone? These questions keep me frozen solid in my tracks. Why can’t I make mistakes? Did I lose my keys to freedom? Freedom to make mistakes? If I walk with you will I lose my way? Who are you anyway?

    I dance so closely to the life I want to live. Flirt so softly with the love I want to give. Will you hold my soul in yours? If I knew you better then I’d know. You are so far out of my reach I don’t know if I’ll ever really know. So I sit with my questions. All my unanswerable questions. And love this phantom lover from this quiet place. Looking into the dark pool of my heart, asking it to tell me where my next footholds are.

    One Response to What is this?

    1. a fool
      June 15, 2018 at 1:00 am

      Your questions, staged in the sequence you have chosen, tell a story. Perhaps these questions are “unanswerable” because the answers are but singular pixels in a high-resolution landscape. Obviously it is wise to be so conservatively “curious” when faced with decisions that could disturb the safety of a life well-structured. However, an analysis of risk management is incomplete without a thorough consideration of the potential reward.

      Any fool would hold a soul as beautiful as yours in theirs.

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