As we enjoy the warmer weather, and celebrate Memorial Day and Indepndence Day, I rationalize my current feelings towards you. I am beginning to notice that your mere presence no longer makes me nervous. I haven’t felt as though I were picking up on your feelings or thoughts for a very long time now, and surprisingly enough, that fact bothers me less and less with each passing day. I still love you. I care for you, and only wish to see you happy. That being said, I no longer desire you or your presence in my life. You have turned me down in attempts to spend time with you every chance I gave. It simply stopped hurting at some point.
So I guess thanks for the continuous reminders that you have no desire to be around me and that I just don’t mean to you what you mean to me. And it doesn’t hurt as much anymore so it’s okay.
I am sure that eventually the pain will fade into dark nothingness.