• Past Lives

    by  • May 30, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Thoughts • 3 Comments

    Do you believe in them?

    When I first met my now husband, I used to have peaceful dreams of Native American times and scenes of he and I in fields and on plains. No matter what the obstacle was in my dream at the time, they always felt peaceful. As the years grew on, our relationship grew as well. My dreams; however, grew darker. Nightmares horrified me in the night. Sometimes I would wake myself up out of a sound sleep crying out. These dreams don’t repeat nightly like the peaceful ones from years ago did, but they terrify me. These nightmares are of betrayal and abandonment. I often wonder if we had a past life together where my dreams were the outcome of our relationship. Or is it my own guilty conscience for having an attraction to another man, even if I have never acted on it.

    3 Responses to Past Lives

    1. I would expect
      June 3, 2018 at 8:25 am

      The memory and rage/sorrow of multiple lifetimes to be overwhelming considering the history of the world.

      I get really pissed off when I think of cultures that use a dialogue centered around past lives to force others into castes.

      I mean the romantic notion of recognizing someone you love from a time before current comprehension is sweet but also gets super weird , there’s a lot of art ,mythology and literature spawned as discussion around various scenarios.

      • Huh?
        June 4, 2018 at 12:52 am

        It is only my own repressed memories of pain/anger I speak of… I do not speak of a daily life that glorifies past lives or anything. But it all feels soooo.. real.

        Painful dreams… peaceful dreams… love, trust, betrayal, passion, pain, torture, peace again… I just don’t know.

    2. who knows
      June 3, 2018 at 8:22 pm

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