It has been three weeks of absolute torture without you. It has not gotten easier, it hasn’t even sunk in. I keep replaying what you have told me in my head ‘ you will find someone better in few months’,’ you will be happy’ , ‘ something’s aren’t meant to be’. You have no idea how much your cowardly justifications hurt. After 3 years that’s all you can say to me? Few months ?! I am a fully grown adult who like a kid cannot digest your words. Every single one of them keeps me up at night and if words could kill I swear these would. These amongst many others you have said which knocked me out of balance. I am an adult who no longer can cope with the betrayal. You said I was it, but at the first opportunity you have gotten rid of me like I never meant a thing to you. How can you sleep at night, whilst I cannot function. I don’t eat , I don’t sleep, I sit in my bed in silence repeating your words and trying to make sense of them. I leave my bed to go to work,cry at work most times or at the very best compose myself until the moment of crossing the frame of my bedroom door after my work is finished. You have no idea of the heartbreak you have left me with. I feel empty.