Why is it that I fell for you, when you never liked me back? You just needed to use me to get over your boredom after ending it with your ex-girlfriend. I don’t think you’re over her, but now I’m stupid enough to still like you, even though rationally, I should’ve stopped myself a long time ago.
I took you back when you asked me if I moved on, because clearly I hadn’t found anyone else, and I was still hung up on you. Well, I shouldn’t even be using past tense, because I’m still addicted to you and I still want you.
You make me feel like I’m not good enough for you, and that I am not relationship material because of my inexperience. I believed you and I just accepted what I could get from you because anything was still better than nothing.
Yet here I am, still waiting for you to message me back. I have other guys who are pursuing me, and one of them keeps saying he can’t get me out of his head. I am flattered, but I’m stupid because I wish it was you that was saying these things about me. I’m an idiot and a basic girl who gets validation from these other guys that I’m wanted and desired, and yet I still can’t have you. These guys are probably what I am to you, giving me their attention and liking me, but I can’t reciprocate those feelings. What I feel for them is probably what you’re feeling for me: you like the attention but you’re not getting what you want. I want you, you want your ex, the other guys want me, but I want you. I have to stop this vicious cycle and really try to move on, for my sake.