I love you more than I should, which is why I pushed you away and tested you like I did. My world may be messed up, but yours isn’t, so while I seemed out of my mind at the time, I really wasn’t.. well, some. I just didn’t want to harm the life you’ve built in anyway, and I haven’t been trusting myself after all I’ve been through. You’re the person I want, but will never have. I’m ok with that if you are happy; and you are. I can never tell you this, so you will always believe the worst about me, but that’s how it needs to be. I love you, always and forever. This is for the best..