• You can never know

    by  • April 24, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 2 Comments

    My dear…
    It’s me, R.
    I know you’ll probably never see this. But it’s ok. I just wish I could touch you for one moment. I just wish it wasn’t so impossible, I wish you weren’t so close yet so far. I wish you saw in me the things I see in you. In your tiny body, your tiny hands, your beautiful oil skin, that magical look in your eyes…your openness to the world, your intelligent and beautiful mind…You know, I think you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. And there’s a difference between ‘pretty’ and ‘beautiful’. Pretty is something you see with your eyes…but beauty…beauty is something you percieve…you know what I mean…I learned the word ‘percieve’ from you. I don’t even know what the point of this letter is…to be honest I just wanted to talk about you, like I always do to my best friend (I pity her), she must be tired of me. But I could never get tired. I just wish we lived in another universe where you could feel something for me, because, to be honest I couldn’t imagine this ongoing year without you in it. I’m thankful for you, but still sometimes I wish I’d never met you. I don’t know. Because, to be honest I love you. That’s it. I can’t ex plain it…but I think we never have to explain our feelings. They just come without any reason. So that’s it. I love you, and the thought of never seeing you again after you’ve left is very hard for me to deal with. But I hope you’re having a great time, and that you’ll go home with great memories. Because that’s what you deserve. The best of everything. I hope you’ll be happy for the rest of your life, even if I won’t be a part of it. Right now I actually feel like I want you to see this. I want you to know that you’re a wonderful person, and I want you to remember this anytime someone mocks you for something or anytime your little fingers crack because you’re nervous(I’m saying it as if my fingers were sooo big) haha I know I’m not funny, sorry…but I’m already shaking writing this, knowing you’ll never see this letter. I hope I can at least hug you.

    2 Responses to You can never know

    1. T
      April 24, 2018 at 9:36 pm

      Wow This hit home.., brought tears to my eye. It is what it is

    2. @author
      April 25, 2018 at 9:02 am

      I wouldnt let go of that hug. They would have to take a crowbar to it. B

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