I wish you would all just STOP. You all fight so much I’m finding it hard to find joy in the group anymore. It’s not that I don’t enjoy it there, we have our good times, it’s just there’s so much fucking drama I can’t focus on being happy. I love you all with all my heart, I really do. But I just can’t take the fighting anymore. I am not a fighter. I’m disappointed you would all start to slowly hating anymore. For the ones that had left, Yes, I get they were forced. But it’s just too much for me to take it anymore. Em, we love you. But when you go off and talk shit, it’s hard for us to trust you to not do it again.
I wish I could find more happiness. I’ll just continue to bottle up my feelings but release them into this letter, and onto this site. John, we love you. I wish you could just listen once to what I and the others say because you really never do. Starving yourself? Not good. We tell you to stop, you never listen so that might be why Em just doesn’t care anymore if you do or not. Because yes, it matters that you are alive. But we can’t just keep trying to stop you just for you to threaten to do it anyways which really isn’t funny.
And then there’s the whole Angelica situation where Church and her are practically enemies now and never talk to each other. Our little family is falling apart and none of you even realize it because you are so caught up in all the drama, and just like me you can no longer find that much joy in the group anymore because of it. And it’s not like we can just change. If we don’t do something, though, our family WILL fall apart.
Oh, and don’t get me started on Kitty. She’s so stressed now she no longer is ever in a good mood! She changed and it’s all because of some “show”. She said it’s a big deal, but harming yourself over it? Really? That’s your “stress solution”? That’s not how it works.
I love you all, I really do, but sometimes you are all too much. Seriously. I won’t deactivate but if you carry on with the drama, then i will leave. I just want you all to be happy. I’m very disappointed in all of you for fighting so much.