• Farewell

    by  • April 24, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    What is there left to say?

    My obsession with the idea that you might come here and read my words and actually know the truth is mental torture sometimes.

    But you don’t care. You never did, really. And I really have no right to expect you to.

    I just keep getting everything so mixed and jumbled in my head. I keep wishing for you to be here and be privy to my thought/feelings. But at the same time the vulnerability of that exposure frightens me to the core.

    I still am not sure if you do or do not visit this site. If you do not, there are a LOT of similarities in our situation that also matches others who frequent here. This causes much confusion and heartbreak.

    I keep telling myself that I am here to work through this in the only way I can, but the truth is that some part of me hopes for you to find the things I have written for you. The other parts of me fear too much exposure.

    Either way, if you are here, please know that I love you and I am sorry for how things have turned out between us. You are blocking me lately and I deserve it. I know I do. I don’t have expectations with you; however, I do care. I know things are tough for you at the moment, but you deserve to be happy. I want you to do what you need to in order to be happy.

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    5 Responses to Farewell

    1. @author
      April 25, 2018 at 6:47 am

      I know my person not here or just doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore. How do I know for sure? I put my real name signed on a letter and never got a response. Ive also used their nickname and the letter also unanswered. I can take a hint. 3 yrs later????. I’m blonde we are slow. Now I dont worry if letters like this are directed twards me. That was hard to deal with. I think its helped with closure aswell. Try doing that. Expose yourself and if letter goes unanswered then you can know that you gave an opportunity for true communication

      Best Wishes,
      Baubo




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      • Silence screams
        April 25, 2018 at 12:18 pm

        Thanks.

        I have. The few times I have fully exposed myself as you describe, I have been left with crickets as well.




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    2. Redstringoffate
      April 25, 2018 at 5:27 pm

      Oh I cared and I was so in love with you. I’m privy to everything because what you feel, I feel and vice versa. You could try not being a coward and talking to me about it. Actually taking time to settle the issue between us with face to face honesty.




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    3. The girl with her heart on her sleeve
      April 26, 2018 at 2:42 am

      I hate the fact that this site has these waiting days between writing something and it being published.
      It should be realtime. Now I read something, I respond, it takes sometimes 4 days to get published and then the one I responded to might never get back here, because he/she thinks no one cared. Especially for the ones who fight depression or think about taking their life.

      Come on LINS. Let us publish right away and then check the letters and delete the ones you think are not appropriate




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    4. I miss hearing this
      April 30, 2018 at 3:09 am

      Dear Ladies,

      I am female.

      He used to say this (farewell) to me.

      So this is not for you.

      Sorry.




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