• It’s my fucking fault

    by  • April 16, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    No more initials….This is to everything, everyone, and you.

    I was the one with politics controlling me.
    I was the one who ran away.
    I was the one who chose a different life.
    I was the one who hurt you.

    Now I have to live with it.
    I have to live with all the time lost.
    I have to live with all the time that will be lost.
    I have to live with the pain from hurting so many people.
    I have to live with the pain from hurting you.
    I have to live knowing I reduced your heart to a smoldering coal.

    I wish I could go back in time, but not for myself.
    So I could give everyone thier life back.
    So I could give you back your life that I stole from you.

    Here I am now with destruction and carnage in my wake.
    I can’t even beg for forgiveness because I do not deserve it.

    All I can do now it say I am sorry.
    I am sorry for taking so long to admit to myself it was my fault.
    I am sorry to all the people I hurt.
    I am sorry to God, the universe, everything.
    But most of all, I am sorry for destroying the most wonderful person in the world.

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