maybe you can read this and it will help. I felt like shit and trapped because you never once gave me an open line of communication for such a thing. I figured you would blow up like you did, which is understandable but if i felt i could talk to you rationally it wouldnt have come outt like this, but in some ways its ad good thing because i didnt like hiding this th past 2 weeks. I will explain more in a sit down conversation for you when you calm down. I was ashamed and knew nothing good would come from it, its quite common if you red the article, but i thought i wouldnt have that problem even though i did good for so long. i only lied over the past 2 weeks because i knew this would be the end result. i got medicine to help me over it, and wanted to tell you but had a feeling it would turn into word war III. i want to be open but it never seems to work out for me so i keep my secrets and they keep me sick.