I want you to know this before I leave this site.
I’m reading here and I’m reading a lot of shit thats making me paranoid and anxious..
i don’t want to start pointing fingers.
I actually liked YOU
I guess you’d say I fell blindly for you. Thinking this time around, sure even if I felt little on the surface,
The connection felt impossible to deny
So I stood around,
I denied all the preconceived notions I had for you, the warning signs..
I thought I could somehow manage my emotions
It just never last long and
with every meeting I get more attached to you.
I think what you wanted was fun.
A playing field, multiple choices
And thats fine.
I just couldn’t take the secrecy..
why you couldn’t be up front about it.
Your letters had me going..
I felt like I was the only girl.
I’m glad you took an avid interest in me
Maybe you wanted a change from the norm..
So you wanted to try someone new and different
Hope I got to satisfy your curiosity. Lol
I felt open and was open with you. I just never got the same treatment
What we have seems unbalanced
I mean, I’m still not convinced you even write here
it does not actually matter if I think of it
You never openly admitted you felt the same way
(Smart move I’ve got to say)
Ending it would not be such a big deal.
I’m taking this way too serious than you are so
I have to let it go before things get too deep and I cant find my way out.
-to my friend, my never love.