• I hated

    by  • April 4, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    Losing you as a friend and lover. My life went cruching down. I felt lost and a big part of me wanted to beg and plead for you to stay in my life. Ive just never have been the type to force or guilt anyone to stay in my life if they didnt want to be. I was crushed. My life got dark. The sunshine left. My laughter was gone. I hirt like everyone else. Its taken a long time of pleading on an anonymous site to have you open the door you shut. I will habe to say you were one of the most special person in my life. I will habe to say i honestly fell in love with you. Look im guilty also. I didnt open up to you how i was feeling when it came to you and me. You led me to believe you were truly happy with who you were with. I , acared of rejection also. Loomour circumstances were diffcult and i understand that. Yes i lusted over you, but that was the minimal part of our situation. We were friends first. Your company i cherished the most. I could be myself with you 100%. I would hope it was the same for you aswell. I pick my lovers very carefully. Ive only been with 2 guys my whole life and 3 girls. Ive never begged anyone to come back into my life befor you. You had something special i didnt want to let go of and it wasnt the love making part. I genually enjoyed you. Now this isnt a letter to guilt you back into my life. Ive accepted you dont want thst. Im making new friends. I hope your makeing a ton of friend’s. :

    Love always,

    One Response to I hated

    1. Me
      April 5, 2018 at 9:18 am

      I do want this. You don’t need to beg, I need to bed you to forgive me for leaving.
      I never stopped loving you. Whenever I see you, I want to jump for joy and scream I Love you as loud as I can. It can happen now, it will happen now. I can’t wait any longer.

      PS: There is only one line above that makes me think this is not you. “It wasn’t the love making part”…..We were never intimate, so I hope I am just interpiting it wrong.

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