• Mom

    by  • April 2, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Parents • 0 Comments

    You put all this pressure on me not realizing just how much it all weighs. You don’t do this to my siblings, so why me? Why do you constantly push me down no matter what I do? I could get a B+ on a test in a class I usually don’t do well in and all you’ll say is “Why wasn’t it an A?” I just wish you could see that I’m trying. I’m trying so damn hard, but you really don’t know anything about what I’m going through. After the breakup with her and tech week adding stress and my anxiety being up as it is, I literally can’t find motivation. I just can’t. And I know that in your books that deems failure but it’s so damn hard to try your best when your best is never good enough. You don’t realize that sometimes all I need is for you to just hug me and tell me that it’s okay and that I am good enough and that my best is good enough. But you won’t do that… you don’t see the A I got on my test that makes up so much of my grade, you see the F for one homework that barely counts. I know that I need to be better and try harder but it would be amazing if you could let me do it on my terms and not put so much pressure on me. I’m only 15. I’m only human. I can only handle so much. For you to threaten taking away one of the few things that makes me happy beyond belief is so incredibly unfair. You know how much it means to me and how happy it makes me, why would you take that away from your daughter? It feels like I should be walking around the house only speaking when spoken to and calling you Ma’am rather than Mom. Sad isn’t it? I love you more than words can explain, but damn. The only thing I can think of to say at this point is why.

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