I’m sorry that I’m writing this but I have a lot of feelings and I just need to dump them. I like you, I’m somewhat in love with you. Actually, I can picture a future for us. I can see us growing up together, and traveling the world, and maybe having kids, and just living our lives side by side. I think about you all the time. We’ve been friends for years, and I’ve always felt close to you, even after everything that happened, especially after we talked it all through. You make me laugh, you deal with me at my worst, you don’t question my antics, and you put up with my ridiculousness, you deal with me when I talk too fast when I talk too much. You even came back after you had a clear out. I trust you and I appreciate you and I miss you every second we’re apart. Your eyes distract me. Hell, everything about you distracts me and it’s gotten me in trouble. You are the last thing I think about before I close my eyes at night, and the first thing I think about every morning. You are the subject of my dreams and my daydreams. I want to tell you that I’m into you, I think you might be into me to but I’m afraid of losing the friendship we already have. In a year and a half we both go off to school, in different states, and what if we lose touch? I don’t want to lose you. Maybe we end up together. Maybe we’re forever, or maybe we’re until August 2019 and a couple high school reunions after.
I don’t know, I just need you to know, that I love you. And if you ever want to fall in love, I’m around.