• So down

    by  • March 22, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Loneliness • 0 Comments

    I have never been so down, so low, and so, so, lonely.
    I have nobody to confide in: nobody contacts me to ask how I am.
    How did it come to this?
    I’m a kind, forthright, amusing person, whose circumstances have gradually eroded normality away. Nobody’s fault.
    All I can see is a future filled with nothing in particular.
    Washing, housework, shopping, sleep.
    I haven’t been out for months, not even for a cup of tea and a chat.
    It feels like any kind of real life, real living, is over for me.
    And I can’t help but feel bitter, because I want a friend, someone to help me and whom I can help in return.
    Someone to watch tv with, and be silly, and grumpy, and just be myself with.
    I don’t want ‘girls nights out’.
    I don’t want to get drunk.
    I don’t want shopping trips.
    I just need some human contact once I’m a while.

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