• My beloved

    by  • March 17, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 2 Comments

    When I first met you, I thought you were just some naive woman. We never had feelings for each other but after those long conversations that would take almost all of our time, I began to notice how beautiful you are. You were different and kind. Stubborn and selfless. A scum like me fell for you. I don’t think you’ve ever known the reason why I fell for you. I fell for you because you have accepted me, the real me. You’ve always tried your best to cheer me up and motivate me. You were the first person who made me feel like I’m a normal human. You made me happy–really happy. When you became mine, I was the luckiest person alive.I’ve loved you with all my heart.
    Now, you’re gone.
    I miss you every single day. I think about you all the time and everything that i see reminds me of you. I don’t blame you for leaving, i blame myself for being an insensitive scum who cannot help the person he loves when she needs him the most. You know, when you left a part of me wants to chase and beg you to never leave but there is another part of me that feels relieved. That part of me felt relieved because that part of me knows that even a 100 of myself will never deserve you and your beautiful, innocent feelings.
    Even though my mind and my heart is in conflict as those two wants different things, it doesn’t change the fact that i sincerely wish for you to be happy. I know you will be fine without me although it wouldn’t be the same for me.
    I deserve this..I deserve to be alone but I will forever cherish my memories that I had of you. I will never stop loving you, as you were that love I’ve never expected that would just easily come to me without any sacrifices, and a love that never asked me to change. If theres a fated person for each person in this world, you are my fated person.

    2 Responses to My beloved

    1. conflict between mind & heart
      March 17, 2018 at 10:59 pm

      It may be helpful to explain your conflicting views to your person.

      What is your mind telling you & why? What do you want and/or need?

      What is your heart telling you & why? What do you want and/or need?

      Is there a way that both can stop conflicting each other?

    2. a thought
      March 17, 2018 at 11:10 pm

      “The best apology is changed behavior.” – unknown

      “We change our behavior when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing. Consequences give us the pain that motivates us to change.” – Henry Cloud

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