When night hits. I do think of you. I realize there is no point to bringing up the past. If i am ever going to find peace with myself and this there will be times where I will think about you but then realize to just let it drift like a wave . Thinking about my regrets and mess ups will only drain me. I use to think about you alot 24/7 being bymyself most of the time. This year the feelings of longing are fading. For some reason, I get that I am connected. But now im just going to stop. Stop trying to feel anything from you and just let it be. Stop trying to find out whats going on in your life. I realized it is messed up and unethical. It just stresses me out more when I do look at your social media. Sometimes, I wonder if you ever did look me up. I wouldnt mind,just to show you, that my life isnt as stagnant as it was before. I realized….im not much of a social media person, never was. I think I would just keep my personal stuff to myself, my achievements, my drawings, my music. I guess I like my life to be personal to me, so it means something to me. I feel like I dont want or need to carry an image of myself anymore, I feel no need to share or prove anything. If someone wants to know me,hang out, i would be glad to do so by just talking in person. Im pretty closed off from the world, and you seem very open to it. Neither is a bad thing, just different preferences. I guess im just venting today, because i did start to think of you, and it made me realize…how much energy is wasted being tired about the past and this silence. New beginnings from now on. It would also mean i will have to give up this site,twin flames, and everything else. I wont look you up, cuz its fcked. Just to let you know I wouldnt be mad if you refuse to think of me,or just don’t really care.Or if you hated me and want out. I would be fine if you threw it all away, because that was my burden and not yours to carry. Im aware that I was a jerk to you and selfish about a lot of immature/stupid stuff in the past. Im signing myself and you
out of the contract, just so we can live again. I release you from being my twin flame, just so you can breathe again.
To forgive God and myself, so I can pray again.
Love_the ocean. (-..not even going to read the comments on this one.) Im out of this site. Served its ourpose.