• To someone I used to love..

    by  • March 2, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    Dear anonymous,
    I needed to get this off my chest because it’s all I can think about recently, I thought you loved me but how wrong was I? How could you have cheated? calling her babe as if it was nothing you hid your social media from me and didn’t even tell people I existed you have no idea how worthless that made me feel. It was like I was completely alone then after we ended things and talked for a while.. that was it I tried to overdose. You never even knew that and I didn’t want you to because you would have called me an attention seeker and i’m pretty sure that’s already what everybody thought about me.. I was heartbroken. I wanted to end things and of course I told one of my closest friends but she went straight to you and told you everything, I never wanted you to know. I never needed you to know I just wanted everybody to leave me to it but when we were together everyone fell out with me it was always you over them but the opposite way round it was always mates before them. So many memories and now every single one makes me feel sick. You never cared you cheated 2/3 times and couldn’t have cared less that was what you could call selfish. I can’t trust anybody now because of you and never will be able to you made me insecure and now I have anxiety again it isn’t as bad as it used to be but trust me you have no idea how it feels. I guess I stayed around because you were depressed you wanted to end it all and I couldn’t live in a world knowing you weren’t happy and alive but maybe that’s where we were different.. while I was worried you’d end it I tried to end it and you didn’t care one bit. You never said I’m glad you’re still here or anything just looked and treated me like I should’ve taken a few more pills and perhaps I should’ve but if I did that you would’ve won you would’ve been the one to end me.. I hope one day you can read this and understand that everything that happened between us is still haunting me to this day and its over a year since, I loved you more than anything but you never deserved any of my love ..

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