• Next to you

    by  • February 15, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    I can’t even tell you how much I miss you right now!
    I miss you so much!
    You probably think I’m crazy but I don’t really care
    I miss you!!!
    I miss being close to you!
    Where are you?
    I’m starting to think that you probably don’t come on this site, I mean why would you really.
    I know that you are a really nosy person, but I kind of feel like you’re done with me. 🙁
    If that’s the case then that’s it.
    I can’t help but still feel for you.
    Had we not had any interaction since, maybe I wouldn’t.
    But every single time we have an interaction it reconfirms to me that you definitely do feel something for me.
    But it frustrates me so much that we keep leaving this.
    I really don’t know what you want to do.
    I don’t know if there’s something that you want me to do.
    I just want to be in contact with you. I don’t expect anything from you. It’s up to you how much time you invest, but I just wish so much that we could talk. That we could then get past this thing that was left. I feel lost, because I feel like nothing was ever sorted, I never even got to say goodbye to you. You just told me to never speak to you again.

    I could do that if that’s what you wanted. But you must understand that since then, the interactions that we’ve had have given me the impression that that is no longer the case and we do have a mutual closeness.
    I feel connected to you when in the same space as you.
    But, after this, again I feel like what the hell are we doing?
    Please can you just contact me.
    You’ve figured out where I live, you’ve got my number, you’ve got my email. I’m on social media.
    I want to be connected to you.
    But I do not know what you want to do.
    Look, if you don’t want anything to do with me, then please explain to me why that when we see each other, you can’t help but move closer towards me.
    I just want to know what’s going on.
    Other times, I then think maybe I’m just thinking more of this then it actually is.
    Maybe I should just walk and move away from you if I see you, but I can’t because I do want to be close to you and I do want to reconnect with you. I don’t want to give you any impression other than this.
    But, all this is doing at the moment is just causing me to get my hopes up and then nothing comes of it.
    We are physically really close and then we don’t see each other for weeks/months.
    We don’t talk when we bump into each other, but we share a bubble/the same space.
    Can you please tell me what this is.
    I long to hear from you all the time.
    I wish I could just move on, but I can’t.
    You mean too much to me & I can’t deal with how things were left and the interactions since which contradict.
    Is it me?
    Am I just being stupid?
    What do you want me to do?
    I don’t want to keep getting upset over this anymore.
    If I keep doing this, I’ll look back & 10 years would have passed & you’ll be none the wiser thinking of me. Maybe it’s just me.
    Is it just me?
    Please just contact me.
    I don’t care how long it’s been. I just long to speak to you.

    2 Responses to Next to you

    1. NoSoundButTheWind
      February 15, 2018 at 3:44 pm

      Life is too short to let this pass take the chance at least afterwards you will know the answer.

    2. Yani
      February 15, 2018 at 6:25 pm

      Next time we are in the same space, approach me.

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