• Why are we doing this? :

    by  • February 9, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    I feel like we’ve been apart for too long now.
    It’s no ones fault, it’s just how it is.
    Despite this, every time I see you it reconfirms how much we really need to reconnect.
    I feel such a longing, an ache, more so now actually than ever before.
    I have friends I haven’t seen for a while that message to meet up and I always wish it was you.
    I haven’t seen you for some time face to face, but I have felt your presence. I feel like you’ve seen me.
    Oh, to hug YOU! To see your eyes!

    I really, really want to connect with you. I need your advice on things. I couldn’t ask for that though. I know you’re not really there for that and I’m not expecting you to be, but it would be nice to be able to even share things with you. I miss you so much!
    Every single day, I wonder if our paths will cross.
    I don’t know what you think of me anymore. I can only go by what I think your most recent reactions towards me have been and I feel like they’ve been pretty positive so that’s good.
    I know I can’t and it’s not fair to ever expect that I can rely on you, but it would be nice to have some connection which I feel we both know is there anyway.
    More than anything, I just need some assurance from you to know that we are OKayy 🙂

    I need to say something now.
    If you never want to see me or have anything to do with me, no intention whatsoever, then please out of respect, stay away from me from now on,
    I don’t think that is the case, but please don’t mess with my emotions if you don’t actually want anything to with me.
    I do intuitively feel like you DO care about me more than you’d ever officially admit which I find quite intriguing, but I shouldn’t mind read because, I don’t know.
    If this is the case, we both need to stop faffing around and take a step closer. Who knows what we’ll talk about. It might not be 100% successful, but we’ll not know unless we try. I feel positively about you. I don’t hold negative feeling towards you, please don’t be afraid.
    I promise, if you get to know me personally, you’ll see how loyal I can be.
    I think the world of you.
    & there’s not many that I can say that about, trust me.
    YOU are by far one of the MOST special people to ME

    5 Responses to Why are we doing this? :

    1. Me
      February 9, 2018 at 9:57 pm

      I wish this was the woman I want more than anything to be in my life. I really miss her so much. I never stopped caring or loving her.

    2. Bored...
      February 10, 2018 at 4:31 pm

      I feel like I’ve seen you too, only it’s not reallyyou is it?! “Faffing about” haven’t heard that word in ages, but there’s no faffing on this end.
      Perhaps, when the opportunity presents itself and you say something I can finally have my closure, needn’t say a word though. Id walk away in style , the way you never seen me walk before, the way you deserve.


    3. Me
      February 10, 2018 at 10:04 pm

      We have been apart for too long, but that is also the reason we need to change that.

      What can we do to start communicating, for real?

      I do care about you, deeply.


    4. To You.
      February 11, 2018 at 7:46 pm

      I would love to have you in my life. I want to learn more about you. I want you to learn more of me. Look things went hectic between us. I do blame miscommunication on both our sides. It’s not unfixable. The first step to fixing or correcting something is the scariest. After that first step I bet it would be as if we never distanced ourselves. I’ve always been open to reconciliation. You seem to hide or push away. I wouldn’t have the first clue on how to take the first step. I’ve tried by texting, called a few times. I’ve also written letters on here signed with the nickname you have me. All of this and no response from you. That’s got be believing this letter isn’t for me. I just responded in case it was ” my person”. I do still hold hopes for a reconciliation. I love you for you and would never turn you away. My love is unconditional. I can’t explain that to you. We would take things slow. We both got scaithed in our situation. It’s no ones fault. Things just happen. I know the chances of this letter being for me is slim to none. It sure made a good place for me to vent how I truly feel though and to the author I thank you for that.

      Love: Big Bearded Man

    5. @writer
      February 13, 2018 at 8:03 pm

      🙁 hope I see you around campus.. or on train..or kb

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