It feels like so long since I’ve seen you. I’m such an idiot. That last time I think I saw you, you looked, I looked and then I looked away. Why did I not walk towards you? You gave me a strong look of recognition I think. I’m so annoyed with myself.
I kind of feel like I want you to make the move but that’s not fair. I’m so desperate to see you. I wish I would stop chickening out, but that’s my problem.
I just really care about what you think of me & I worry what you think of me.
I don’t really know why because you might worry what I think of you.
We all have regrets, maybe you also think about your actions too. I should stop worrying so much and just leave the worry & go with it.
That’s what I’d like to do.
Arg I miss you so much!
I never thought that I would still feel a longing to be close to you after all these years. I just feel like I can’t let go of you.
I know exactly why, but you don’t, not really.
You probably think I’m a right weirdo.
That isn’t really me.
You mean so much me to me & you’ll always be one of the most important people to me, because after the shit in my earlier life you made me feel like I mattered, you made me feel confident, you gave me self-awareness. You brought the me back out that I thought I’d lost or even really knew.
I miss looking at you. I know it sounds weird, but I love looking at you. I find you so mesmerising. You’re someone that is just so stunningly beautiful inside and out. You have the best personality as well. I want to get to know you. That’s not my choice though, it’s up to you.
I wish there was a scenario where I could meet you somewhere mutual and we could talk.
Would you be up for that?