Its really weird.
How long we have known each other? A year and couple of month as my memory can count. But actually it really feels much more, it’s like you know me since the first day I can remember anything in my life. Its funny how one day we meet someone and then its hard to imagine a day that can pass without them. How gay and pathetic it sounds? But its ok, i allow myself here to be like this. I allow myself only when I’m alone to say out loud that you mean so much to me and that i love you to death. You are driving me crazy sometimes, thoughts i have towards you makes me feel that I’m insane. Sometimes i think that i even can kill for you if needed, how weird is that. You make me think stuff for what i would hate myself. But its not your fault. Its me. I’m too scared to lose you. I’m scared to get hurt from the the only thing that actually makes me happy. U make me feel special and needed. No one does that. We share something between us, that makes us stick together. Always. I know you don’t want to lose me as well. I can feel it. I can see it. But you are not as crazy as me i guess..hehe.. and that’s of course for the best. I think I’m enough.
On the first day, when i met you i knew that we would become friends. But i could not imagine that anyone could be able to make me love themselves so much. Its kinda funny, i never planned anything. How spontaneous our relationship is to me i think you can’t even imagine. You are different to me. You are like a friend i never had.. if you read this you would say that its sentimental and not true. But it is. I receive so much care and love from you, i never received anything from anyone like this before. You are one of a kind. You are a person you don’t even know exists in yourself. You are the only reason i want to live more. Am i addicted to you? Huh… no. I’m not. I just respect and love you from the bottom of my heart. Thanks you for you being you. Thank you for your honest care. I love you so much. I don’t know is it friendly love, is it romantic or anything in between but i know that you are important and i dont care about any of that. You are making me happy, you are the human i always wanted and needed. Thanks for being you, thanks for being with me. I love you.