I have no job. I can’t get a job because I suffer from anxiety and get panic attacks during interviews.
I applied for 700 last year, had a few hundred interviews and got nothing back. Not even worth a rejection.
My doctor doesn’t think I need medication. He thinks talking to a therapist is all that’s needed. I’ve had 125 appointments with different therapists and cancelled each one due to my anxiety and fear about it.
I have no friends. I lost contact with the very few friends I had when I met my husband. He left me too. Socialising is mentally draining. So exhausted.
I slacked at school so didn’t get the qualifications needed to do anything purposeful with my life. I was invisible at school not naughty enough t o get attention, not smart enough to be encouraged.
I don’t know what the point is anymore. I’m finding it hard to want to be here. Not suicidal, just no longer existing in this life. Because I am not living I’m just existing nothing brings me any joy.
I have nothing and nobody. Because I am nothing and nobody.